It has been so long since I have written anything on my blog and I realize now how nice it is to sit down and just think about things. It is late though and I need to make sure that I do not sit here and mess with my blog all night. It is crazy how fast the summer has flown by and I feel like I have not done very many big and exciting things with Kirra or even just relaxed with her. I am such a maniac with how everything has to be just so in my house before I can do anything else. I have an order that I try to leave by and when things are not in line I tend to get a little crazy. But hey I am human and that means I can fix it if I am determined and really try. So the summer is not over yet and I can show Kirra and Brandon I love them my the simple things that I do. I love them so much and it is sad to say how much I need to improve for them. I have so much to be happy for, yet a lot of times I find myself slumping around the house feeling depressed for things that really aren't important and that I can fix if I would just change my ways and get off my butt. I know this is all very boring, but hey it's who I am. I am really bad about sharing my feelings, especially not knowing who might be reading this. But I have decided that I have a lot to work on, which is something that comes around ever so often, which is good, but I wonder if I am learning what I am supposed to. But the other day I was reading my scriptures and I read about "learning with joy", so this is my new goal. To look at things with joy and when I feel down I need to look at what I have and what brings me the greatest joy, especially my Heavenly Father and Saviors presence in my life, my loving husband Brandon, my beautiful daughter Kirra, the chance that I have to attend school, the wonderful area in which we live in, and I am even learning to be grateful and find joy in our tiny, tiny apartment. There is beauty all around if we are looking in the right places and I know that our Heavenly Father and Savior want us to be happy even when things aren't perfect. I know I always end up bearing my testimony in some way when I write on my blog, but I love the everlasting gospel of Jesus Christ and he is my everything, for I am nothing with out him. He has given me everything I have ever wanted, I don't always recognize his blessings or the trials that he has given me for what they truly are. He loves me and brings peace to my soul, which often needs relief from even the minute things of this world.

Our Family

I am finally updating my blog! I knew that I needed to do it soon, or my best friend Cristel would have it out for me. ; )

We have just been so busy lately. Brandon is currently working on a presentation at work. I am so thankful for his hard work and all that he does to provide for our family. I feel so blessed to be able to have him home every night and to be able to be in his presence. It is so calming to me. He has been helping out so much around the house and with Kirra. I am so thankful for this and for all that we are experiencing together.

I have been busy with school and it has been an amazing experience. I have my struggles, there are days when I don't feel that it is possible for me to be a mom, a student and the primary president all at once. But I have learned now more then ever, that if my Savior believes in me, than so should I. I have been doing very well in my classes and love the rush I get when ever I see a high test score (Hopefully, this will stay with me throughout my schooling). I feel like the classes I selected were perfect for a first time student, they have taught me so much more about my abilities and I feel like I am thinking more productively than I ever did before. For now, I plan on continuing with school until Brandon and I feel that it is time to add an addition to our family. I am learning to trust my Heavenly Father so much more in this. I know that I am blessed with my beautiful daughter, but I feel the yearning to bring more of my

children into this world. So I have a hard time or get ahead of myself when I see many of my friends getting pregnant and having their second child. I know I will be there someday and until it is absolutely right, I will continue learning how to be a better individual, a better wife, a better mother and most of all a better daughter of God.

Kirra is absolutely adorable as usual. She is getting so big and she almost speaks in full sentences now. I am constantly amazed by the things she knows. The other day Brandon made some fruit smoothes for our little family. I believe that they are better than Jamba Juice, they are so good. My mouth is beginning to water just from the thought of them. He filled 2 cups up with a straws for me and him and then filled one of Kirra's sippy cups. I was sitting on the couch and Brandon was in the comfortable office chair, when she came up to each of us and pressed her cup to our and says "Cheers". We don't ever do this and we have no clue where she learned it, but it was pretty dang funny. We are always laughing in our home and now that the weather has brighten up, we are feeling so much more happiness in our home.

It is funny how the weather can do that do you. I am ready to get past the gloom of the winter days and move on to summer. I love winter, but when you are stuck in such a tiny apartment, it kinda gets the best of you. I am thankful for the good weather we are already experiencing and we look forward to many upcoming camping trips, hikes, fishing, zoo adventures and many more things we Forsyths enjoy doing during the spring and summer time.

We hope you are all doing well and that you have felt the blessings of a loving Heavenly Father in your life and in the lives of your family.

Love,

The Forsyths

Tag You're It!

I got tagged by my best friend, dang it Cristel. I haven't done one of these before, but I can already tell that it probably won't be very good. But I guess we will see how it turns out ..... and who I will end up tagging. 

20 YEARS AGO:

1. I was 4, almost 5!

2. Was living in Oklahoma City.

3. Had a tire swing in the back yard and pine trees that made a nice hideout for my sister and I.

4. Hid behind the couch while watching Jaws.

5. Lived across the street from a cute, old man that we called Pop. He was always working on something fun in his garage.

10 YEARS AGO:

1. I was having a hard time in Oklahoma.

2. Moved out to Utah and became really good friends with Kelly Bell. I finally had my group of friends that I loved....lots of great memories.

3. I was crazy about boys, especially Aaron Atwood and Nick Harames......lol.

4. I was trying to pull off the Utah's big hair-do's, with lots of hairspray, but it wasn't working that great.

5. Was going through a stage of teen attitude and up and left for Oklahoma to live with my mom again. 

5 YEARS AGO:

1. I was dating a guy in bountiful.

2. Attending a singles ward in Ogden.

3. Moved into an basement apartment with my best friend Cristel, with a crazy owner....and I mean crazy, good times though!

4. Went to a lot of dances, loved it!

5. Felt like I couldn't find "Me" anymore, broke-up with boyfriend, and vowed to just have fun and not get serious with boys for a while.

1 YEAR AGO:

1. Brandon, Kirra and I moved to Salt Lake and we are loving it still.

2. We celebrated Kirra's first Christmas, it was so fun and we are so excited to watch her open more gifts.

3. Met the Coil's her in the court, who are now our really good friends.

4. Thought about attending college, but wasn't right time for me.

5. I was the 2nd counselor in the Relief Society Presidency.

. I was scrambling to finish finals
THIS YEAR:

1. I joined 24 hour fitness and got back down to my before pregnancy weight.

2. Learned the great blessing often come in simple packages.

3. Took a Vacation out to Oklahoma, lots of fishing, and family fun.

4. Got called into the Primary as the 1st counselor.

5. Started getting things rolling to attend college in the spring.
1. I was blessed with my sweet Jetterbug
NEXT YEAR:

I will turn 25 years old and finally start college. Brandon and I will celebrate our 4th anniversary, what a wonderful 3 1/5 years it has been so far. Our little girl will turn 2 years old, she has blessed our lives so much and she is the greatest little thing ever. We know that there will be many new and unexpected things happening in 2009, there always is, but we will continue to laugh, love and learn with each other. 
Who knows what god has in store...hopefully more happiness and smiles, more ups than do

I am tagging: Erin Coil, Lindsey Wallace and Tonya Allen

"Ready or Not....Here I Come!"

I am officially 3 weeks and 4 days away from starting school and I am officially freaking out. Brandon had to calm be down today before I had a nervous break down. That might seem a little weird to some of you, who love school and are attending now. I am excited to go to school, but I am just really nervous. See I haven't been to school since my high school graduation, which was 5 years ago and I have been a stay home mom for almost the last 2 years. So going from spending the day with my daughter, best friend Erin and her daughter, Emry, my wonderful husband Brandon, and the occasional ward activity or ward friends...... to being surrounded by new, most likely more intelligent people then me, just freaks me out. All I have to say is good thing that I am taking a communications class, which is my first class of the day. But I know that I am supposed to go to school and I am grateful for the opportunity and lately I feel like I am learning a lot more about myself. I am noticing that I have a lot more determination, then I thought I had. I was running the other day and it was a cold morning, but it felt good to get out and move my tired limbs and let the endorphins release into my system. I could feel all the stress melting away and I was beginning to feel like I could take on anything that came my way that day. I always run 3 laps around the University Village, which is 3 miles and halfway into the 2nd lap I started getting a side crap, so I pinched my side and kept running hoping it would soon disappear and I would be able to speed up for the last lap. But it continued to pain my side, but I kept running, wondering why I didn't just give up. But then I remembered when I was younger how I tried out for the volley ball team in 7th or 8th grade in Oklahoma. I have never been that great at sports and I am not that coordinated, but I gave it a shot. I wasn't that great at serving the ball, especially spiking it, even as tall as I am and I was really slow at saving the ball before it pounded to the ground from the opposing team. Try-outs were hard core, well they seemed to be at the time. I thought I tried my best at everything, but if I had practiced harder, I would have probably been so much better. Our coach would have us run laps around the gym and if anyone stopped, she would punish the whole team with more laps. So many of the girls would tie their shoes loosely so they would come untied while running, thus allowing them to stop to tie them. Our coach caught on pretty quickly and we would all be punished for their inability to tie their shoes properly. I would always get a side cramp while running and again I would always pinch my side and keep going. After try-outs were over, we all gathered together, anticipating who would be on the what team (A or B) or who would be leaving without any satisfaction and just disappointment. She called name after name and then called my name, announcing that I had made the B team. She then explained that the only reason I had made the team was because of my determination to keep running, even with a side cramp. I was so excited, but now I wish that I had accomplished even more with the volleyball team, I really didn't try that much after making the team. But even from that memory, I know that I have even a little bit of motivation and if it is something I really want then I will make it to the finish line, just as I did when I had my beautiful daughter natural.  As I thought about that memory, it gave me a desire to finish my last lap, as I started to speed up, my side cramp began to disappear, "Run Faster" I thought as my music would pump more energy to my legs and again the pain of the side cramp would be less and less. It is when I am working out that I feel my greatest and I can understand why it is so important to be healthy and it makes my testimony of the "Word of Wisdom" grow stronger. It is in these moments that I really push myself to the next level, alway trying to run a little more, up my weight when lifting and drench my self with sweat when I am doing my cardio. These are the moments that I hold onto as I am trying to accomplish something, not related to working out. But sometimes I forget that determination, but as I remember to pray and ponder of the scriptures, that determination seems to last throughout the day. That little voice inside my head, that says "You can't do this!", "You will never be smart!", and the one that hurts the most...."You don't deserve to be happy!"....melts away and I am full will the peace that my Heavenly Father and Savior can only give me. To be criticized by others hurts, but to be criticized by yourself damages. I have hurt myself for to long, held myself back from dreams that I have longed for, believing that I was not worth it. I have blamed this on trials I went through as a child and I am just now beginning to see the pain that it has caused me through the years, keeping wounds open and hurting, unable to truly heal. It will soon be a New Year and a perfect time for a change in me. I do deserve to be happy, to have a wonderful, adoring husband, a beautiful daughter, who brightens up any day. They both give me a reason to keep breathing and keep moving towards living out my dreams. I am capable of learning and achieving in school, I just better make sure that I work hard and "do" my very best this time. I deserve to be treated kindly by others, especially myself and I definitely without a doubt deserve "the love" of my Heavenly Father and Savior.

Thanks to my loved ones who have always believed in me, I wouldn't be even a little bit of who I am today with out my wonderful husband, daughter and close family and friends. I truly have been blessed with so many great examples and inspiration.

Betting on a $300

So my Mom came up in November to help my sister RaeAnne out. My sister was having these really weird episodes were she couldn't breathe and she would feel like she was going to pass out. She got taken to the E.R. my ambulance one time and then we took her another time after she had just barely had an M.R.I, but they never found out what was wrong even with all the test she went through. The doctor said it was better that she knew what it wasn't even if she still didn't know what was causing it. She had many blessing telling her that if she trusted in the Lord she would be okay. She has been feeling a lot better and she has only had minor episodes. We continue to hope that they will completely go away. But while my mom was visiting from Oklahoma, we all mad a bet to not cut our hair for a year. So that explains the picture of me, but anyways, we just started the bet in Nov. and I am the worst one at bets in general, but especially at not cutting my hair. Every year I decide that I am going to grow it out, but then winter comes along and then my hair get dry and stat-icy no matter what I do. So I end up cutting it, but I really don't want to loose, but the odds are probably more in their favor then mine. But whoever ends up giving into temptation has to give each person in the bet $100, but we are allowed to trim it, but no more then a 1/2 inch. So once or twice a month I will post a picture and tell you how my progress is going. So encourage me on, and maybe I will save us some money and then my husband won't end up kicking my butt : ).  YAY, FOR LONG HAIR........MAYBE! ;)

Letting My Fears Get The Best Of Me

So those who know me might or might not know this.... but I am a scarredy cat. I like to do things within my comfort zone. This is one of the reasons I have never gone to college or voted.... and yes I just said voted. I am almost 25 years old and I have never even tried to vote. I was alway either working or never registered. I have never really been into politics and I guess that I felt like if I didn't vote, I would make the wrong choice. But in not voting I did make a wrong choice, I chose the easy way out. Instead of learning more about our country and those running for President and then making a decision. I coward and decided to not worry about it, well it is sad to say, but I have not looked into it that much this year either. But I will be voting this time and Brandon and I will talk about who we think is the best candidate. So I have a new goal to get more involved and to not just sit on the side lines waiting for Brandon to tell me who to vote for. A new President always scares me, but I just hope and pray that he is a man who looks to God for guidance. 

But the reasons I have voted are pretty much the same reasons I haven't gone to school.  I feel like if I never go, then I can't fail anymore then I already have. But I am beginning to see that there is so much more I can be as a woman, a wife and a mother. I can't let my fears take over and I have let them for to long. I know that I need to go to school and I am excited to learn, I just hope that I will learn. I have prayed about it and I know it is right choice and I trust that my Heavenly Father will help me accomplish this huge goal of mine, with hard work from me of course.

So I give thanks for my wonderful husband who has always supported me no matter what and will continue to support me in my schooling. I am truly blessed to have him in my life and he teaches me so much.  Thanks to all those that we love who have always believed in me and have been my role models and heros as I see them achieving their goals. 

Making Halloween Memories

So, I am still on the computer and it is now almost 1 am. So this is the last thing that I wanted to post tonight. Fall is pretty much here, even though the last couple of weeks it hasn't felt like it. But we are so excited for the holidays. We are getting ready for Halloween and I just wanted to post a pic of Kirra in her cute bee costume last year. I can't believe how much she has grown. Last year Brandon and I didn't get dressed up, but I am hoping this year that the whole family participate. But you will just have to want and see what we are all going to be. Until then, have a happy soon to be Halloween.